REBORN after Mental SURGERY. Viking warrior vision

May 2020
Melbourne  Hospital.  


Friday surgeon comes thru briefly....

Her:  "Hi ... how are you.".. ok,  
Me:  "was painful last night... swollen side face."
her:   "you will get that next few days... swollen eye etc".

me:  "do you know netflix ?  
you remind me of "viking warrior"

HER:   "  "You said that after the operation"   
"did I ???"

"yes after the surgery , on drugs"...
( I have zero recollection)...  I just remember waking up in main room that I am now.  

FUCKKKKK !!!  I had that afterlife connection.... pity it goes so fast..... 
would like to do out of body travel on demand... DMT...?









arab Lady next to me...

Arab speak idea. 

Talking to irak lady... she rants in iraki..
I show movie with preist netflix...
Cry.... feel my heart open
Play flute to her with amp.

I need to go to israel,  
Iran.... play I music, 
Speak arab.... 

Its weird...i feel more closness to arab than western perverts...  
That cruel guy in canberra who put me down to " say sir to officers".when i was ina pair of shorts.. ( not required).

Future... dont show fear, say " whats up ? Are you crazy ? ". ...feel closer to israel movie with agents than western culture.

Its got weak..like the uk was weak in america... against locals dressed in non red, with help from france...
Like they were weak against the zulus... 

New world.... i shld travel middle east
Play.flute, camp in jordan.
Comm with stars. 
And the locals.
One I pack,  
Work teaching some english maybe... see as you go.

Mens Spiritual Renaissance Workshop

Men and Boys workshop,



RECITE:

guidelines are:

Journal every evening, during day.

Dont force ... go with the flow,
loose yourself in the moment
go beyond words into pure understanding.  

Dont judge or mock openly... other pax. 
you are both the devil and God...  let it all out. 


STAGES:



1.   Lakeside  time and forest walk 
after arrival.  

walk in forest.  silence

BBQ

Wim hoff breathing/ immerse.   

camp under stars ,lakeside tents. 



2.  Ground work  theoretical 

 mythology 
warrior
king
lover
magician

psychedelics,  being THE universe.  separation temporary, 
aspects of ourselves.   
TALK IS CHEAP
ONLY direct experience and seeing it around you and in others...
your dark side, your light side.

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Shamanic transformation - play  Jordan Peterson. 
personality  changes permanently 
1 year later they are measurmably more in "openess" - creativity .  

DMT  blasted out of their body, encounter beings.  
glassman intravenous ... in hospital exp. 

Reality is a tree , surrounded by a snake... old idea,
DNA  .   
comes up in ayahusca.  
also his son's
picture..... mushroom houses
jacobs ladder that goes up to heaven......  
(He never went to church).


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sadist  AND warrior who rescues the drowning kid.  

need to see it light a light in a darkened room -  mystic vision
vision quests,
mushrooms etc.  

heros journey.
video examples

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forces in modern world - lack of male initiation.  
or female initiation.
excessive tech.
excessive consumerism.

females brainwashed into dissing , hurting men... 
everywhere .....  like a demonic possesion.  
men who have internalised their dissing and diss other men.


contempt for spirituality, kindness, connection, 
taking time alone to just sit ... (except fishing LOL). 

lack of real feedback -  
countryside you cannot lie,  need to repair that fence,
get pulled out of bog by that landlord you think is an asshole. 

Hunger games style.... 


land of confusion.

feminism  ,  communism...  Islam
Power and subjugation  enslavement.  

but... .also enslaves those at the top... with mistrust, alone,
shame for hurting men ,boys,  kids.
eg communist party... always scared they can be stabbed by another .
as that bio said... pleasures with 14 yr old girls in chalets,  but always terrified of falling out of favor and being disgraced or  imprisoned or killed.




3.     walk to hilltop with packs.  

set up camp.  
hikes  , climbs
(abseil).   trust falls.

swim  relax.  

Evening:

A.
Psytrance with lasers, lucy

everyone has glowstick.
mat ,  jacket.    

encouraged to cry, yell at parents...  whatever.
dance.


B.  Vocal ritual  lead by leader  under stars. 

and Then by participants volunteering from workshop.  

"help me see how I can heal the rift with my wife" 
"help me find a job that fulfills me"


turn music down,  
lead in ritual,,,
"Universe, you know what I need".
help me get rid of my pain, my chains
help me see the light...
"

etc 
"universe I am you, you are me.
I fuck you, you fuck me"


C.  HOWLING AND SCREAMING
Encouraged to walk around ... with glowsticks,
yell at stars

D .   SILENCE

Recite:

"sit, lie...  
look at stars,
let answers bubble up to the surface... fleeting ideas,
pictures,  words in your head, feelings".

"shooting stars ... can say hello to you..."

"Trust the universe is watching you wake up from your pain, illusion,' bondage to no longer necessary ideas,  self harm, harming others.  "




4.  Morning after :

gentle morning and breakfast.

walk individually.
come back debrief in circle.



my comments
to mike morell. org.... (male initiation).  


LOL.... you have some wisdom and insight.

But not to realise that Feminism since the 90s especially, but even at its inception , Hates masculinity , boys,  and vilifies women who dare to love men ... is total blindness.  Take the "red pill".....  and wake up to these destructive forces.

I agree , The solution is not macho swagger and having a big car or being a jock or a fucking 100 women,

But neither is it meek submission to insults, enslavement, being branded a "toxic male" from birth like a jew wearing a yellow star all his life and having to apologise at every corner

"too aggressive and fast"  then 30 minutes later:  "too slow and weak".


"dont run , dont walk,  do as you are told"

(from the movie "Serenity"  where the young girl at school dares to criticise the "perfect"  utopian / socialist paradise of the galactic union.  After her teacher gives a presentation on how wonderul it is....)


Thanks to the soviet diktats of Female supremacism,  Womens happiness is down 30% or more since the 70s... see the Harvard study commented by Janice Flamingo.  
Feminism, Islamism,  communism are all aspects if the same malevolent and destructive force...

Its about raw POWER  and the sadistic impulse to create poverty ,pain and enslavement:


Obey, shut up, be a good slave.
from The Chinese communist party
to academic feminists
to radical islamists mass beheading infidels.

camp activities

Martial arts.  / Warrior energy

sparring , disarming.

shield wall . 

fitness.

cct,  calisthenics,  basic weights,  group jog

group tasks like carrying loads uphill.

Camping, Hiking

top roping 

hunting / fishing eating meat

going into cold water.  

Acessing the transcendent/ Magician

Music by asura,  sunset

solo time with sunset

illuminated poi 

poerty readings

Arthurian mhtys

South american myths

ayausca

mushrooms  

Lover

feminibe mythology

Art -  show impressionist,  achtedrals, reubens, dutch masters

flute music

drumming

King

Take it in turns leadership - navigatgion,  organizing group for task. shield wall

Why we need Male Initiation

Richard Rohr:


"if males do not have initiation, they will allways abuse power.  "

"It always starts with taking boys into Nature"

"The Initiation of boys was deemed absolutely necessary for cultural a, and also personal Spirituality. "

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Around 15  --- there is a major brain surge , tries to connect all of the 4 brains, with the " heart brain"

at that point,  if a young man is not presented with a big Vision, there is a massive dying off of brain cells.  

without that, you just try to be a part of something LOUD (rock concert, army, gangs.. ) .

without vision,  leads to intense cynism which then leads to violence, lashing back at a meaningless society. 

its only when he is in the middle of nature, that he can't control, is in awe of, that transformation can occur.

solitude and silence - Indian vision quest. 

initiation re-aligns the young man as a son of the universe. 

eg Jesus 40 days in the desert. 

"I am beloved, I am a son"  he came out with.  knowledge from the belly, not mind. 

we spend 90% of our time in "profane space"  solving this or that problem, surfing facebook etc . Need to have "Liminal space"

You need to pull the man out of "business as usual'. lead him into a safe place, take away roles or self-importance, one thing matters, the present.  eg All wear same clothes 

Boy was left alone and aimless so he would start longing for guidance.  Create "beginners mind" ..

Pain forces you into interior world - so leave him alone so he cant keep running from his pain,  loneliness , superficiality.

tests and ordeals, to lead outside comfort zone.  Must not keep pandering to the ego: drugs , sex, rock n roll, self-importance etc ..

Life is hard.  Hence ritual wiping in pueblo initiation.

If he doesn't know that, he will seek perk, priviledge, position. (petit chef).  

Warrior

If this one problem in Brasil it is the immense immaturity of the Brasiian male.  Drugs,sex, rock n roll.

Churches on every corner , for 300+ years.  But... beautifully dressed statues, churches filled with sweet lovong old ladies. 

A religion for women, that men cannot respect.